Myles Joseph

Well, I didn't expect to be making a post about Myles' birth so soon, but he decided he was going to have more fun if he came out a little early. So, January 12th at 8:10pm Myles made his way into the world and into our lives. He was 10 weeks early so we were not expecting to meet him so soon. January 10th, I woke up to a gush at 5am. I knew what it was as soon as it happened. It wasn't a HUGE gush, just a small one so I decided to go back to bed and see what happened. Throughout the morning, it just kept leaking and knew I had to go in. We ended up at the hospital at about 2pm. The doctors confirmed that I had ruptured and decided the best thing to do would be to keep me there until I delivered. We were thinking it was going to be a long 2-4 weeks. Well, Myles had other plans. Weds. night, the doctors noticed that Myles' heart rate was dropping then picking back up. They told me to call Brett and get him up there ASAP. So, I called Brett and within about 3 minutes of hanging up with him, they were wheeling me back for an emergency c-section. I don't remember all of it because I was pretty much freaking out the entire time. I was scared to death because this baby was coming very early and I was going into it all alone. I couldn't believe that I was laying on an operating table without Brett by my side. It was tough. So, after about 10 minutes, Myles was out and screaming.

I found a HOBBY!!

So, I started to get a little stir crazy while being a stay at home mommy to these two little men. After being bored out of my mind for months, I decided to give sewing a shot. I started off doing easy things like cloth wipes and small little blankets with ribbon. I've done some burp cloths and some PJ pants for the boys and Brett. I even made a rag quilt! That thing was so hard to make at first. I was having a hard time cutting out the squares until Brett decided to buy me a rotary cutter and a big cutting mat. I think he felt sorry for my big pregnant butt. It feels good to actually DO something. It gives me time to myself and it's actually very relaxing. I might even attempt to make a few cloth diapers before Myles makes his debut in a few weeks!
So... Here is my rag quilt that I am seriously so proud of! It turned out bigger than I thought it would which is good!

Brody Paul is ONE!!

Here we go again!!

So, about three weeks ago we found out that we will be having another baby!! This has been a HUGE shock to us because we weren't really planning on having another one, but, we're excited! I'm thinking I'm about 8 weeks along. Maybe a little more maybe a little less. I have my first doctor's appointment on the 4th then I'll have an ultrasound a few weeks later. So, we should know a for sure due date pretty soon! I'm a little nervous about having another baby so soon after having Brody but, everything happens for a reason. We are praying for a happy and healthy baby. I'd like a girl but, hey if we have another boy, we have everything we need! I'm going to try to keep up on this a little more with this new pregnancy. Once we find out how far along I am, I'll start doing belly shots!! I can't believe we're going to have another baby!!

16 More days...

I cannot believe that my baby is going to be ONE in 16 days! This doesn't even seem real to me. I look at him and I still see this little baby. I know he's not a baby anymore. He's this growing little man soaking up everything around him. It's amazing to see how much he has grown in a year. He is so different than he was. I swear I had the most colicky baby known to man. He literally screamed 20 hours out of the day. It was hard but so worth it! Those 8 months of screaming hell are over now and we have this beautiful little boy. He's so happy and so inquisitive. He loves to explore anything and everything and he absolutely adores Jakob! I really honestly could not ask for a better family. I never in a million years thought that I would be here at 27 years old. I wouldn't change a thing.

My Little Men

I'm so amazed at how big they are getting! Jakob is 3 and Brody is soon to be a year!!

Tomorrow is her birthday...

I've been feeling a little anxious the past week or so. Tomorrow is Faith's birthday. She would have been four! I find myself thinking about her a lot lately. What would she look like? Would she be more like me or more like Brett? I wish she could be here to meet her brothers. I miss her everyday. I find myself looking at her pictures a lot more. I'm so glad we had the opportunity to take those pictures. I know at the time, some people disagreed with our decision to take pictures with her. Looking back now, I wouldn't have changed anything. I needed those pictures. At the time I didn't realize how important they would be. Now, I know that I can show Jakob and Brody her pictures and they will know that they have a big sister watching over them at all times. I wonder if she's with my mom and dad. Are they holding her and rocking her? I like to think that they are. I know my mom and dad are probably thrilled to have their grand daughter with them everyday. What kind of games does she like? What does her laugh sound like? What does her smile look like? I wish I could hear her laugh and see her smile. I wish she were here so I could teach her to ride a bike. Watch her dance recitals. Play dress up. All of the things that little girls love. I know tomorrow is going to be so hard. Knowing that she is with her grandma and grandpa makes me feel a little better. I know they are taking good care of her.
I love you Faith Ebita!