Brody Paul is ONE!!

Here we go again!!

So, about three weeks ago we found out that we will be having another baby!! This has been a HUGE shock to us because we weren't really planning on having another one, but, we're excited! I'm thinking I'm about 8 weeks along. Maybe a little more maybe a little less. I have my first doctor's appointment on the 4th then I'll have an ultrasound a few weeks later. So, we should know a for sure due date pretty soon! I'm a little nervous about having another baby so soon after having Brody but, everything happens for a reason. We are praying for a happy and healthy baby. I'd like a girl but, hey if we have another boy, we have everything we need! I'm going to try to keep up on this a little more with this new pregnancy. Once we find out how far along I am, I'll start doing belly shots!! I can't believe we're going to have another baby!!

16 More days...

I cannot believe that my baby is going to be ONE in 16 days! This doesn't even seem real to me. I look at him and I still see this little baby. I know he's not a baby anymore. He's this growing little man soaking up everything around him. It's amazing to see how much he has grown in a year. He is so different than he was. I swear I had the most colicky baby known to man. He literally screamed 20 hours out of the day. It was hard but so worth it! Those 8 months of screaming hell are over now and we have this beautiful little boy. He's so happy and so inquisitive. He loves to explore anything and everything and he absolutely adores Jakob! I really honestly could not ask for a better family. I never in a million years thought that I would be here at 27 years old. I wouldn't change a thing.

My Little Men

I'm so amazed at how big they are getting! Jakob is 3 and Brody is soon to be a year!!

Tomorrow is her birthday...

I've been feeling a little anxious the past week or so. Tomorrow is Faith's birthday. She would have been four! I find myself thinking about her a lot lately. What would she look like? Would she be more like me or more like Brett? I wish she could be here to meet her brothers. I miss her everyday. I find myself looking at her pictures a lot more. I'm so glad we had the opportunity to take those pictures. I know at the time, some people disagreed with our decision to take pictures with her. Looking back now, I wouldn't have changed anything. I needed those pictures. At the time I didn't realize how important they would be. Now, I know that I can show Jakob and Brody her pictures and they will know that they have a big sister watching over them at all times. I wonder if she's with my mom and dad. Are they holding her and rocking her? I like to think that they are. I know my mom and dad are probably thrilled to have their grand daughter with them everyday. What kind of games does she like? What does her laugh sound like? What does her smile look like? I wish I could hear her laugh and see her smile. I wish she were here so I could teach her to ride a bike. Watch her dance recitals. Play dress up. All of the things that little girls love. I know tomorrow is going to be so hard. Knowing that she is with her grandma and grandpa makes me feel a little better. I know they are taking good care of her.
I love you Faith Ebita!

Yay!!

After 8 long years, Brett has asked me to marry him!! I am so excited! He bought me the prettiest ring! I feel like I'm floating! My days are now filled with taking care of my boys and wedding planning! It seems so.... unreal! lol

An Update On My Life...

Ok.. Where to begin? Well, I spent 3 days in the hospital with Brody... Apparently he had severe jaundice and a really low red blood cell count. The jaundice is gone... thank God! But, the red blood cell count keeps dropping. He's going ti have to go back for more blood work in a few weeks. If the levels continue to drop, he will have to have a blood transfusion. I pray to God we don't have to take that route.
A.J. (my little brother) has been diagnosed with cancer... the doctors said there really isn't much they can do. The cancer is in his lungs, vocal chords, spinal cord, and thyroid. This scares the crap out of me. He comes here every weekend to stay the night. I just can't imagine NOT having him here. He's such an amazing kid. He's so sweet and caring. I pray to God every night that he will be ok. The doctors said there isn't much they can do. I'm not sure if it's because it's too advanced or because they don't know what to do.... I am so scared for him... He's my buddy \! Jakob adores him! Please pray for him... I love this kid like he's my own...